I am feeling much better than I was the last time I posted. Today, I am feeling good about the choices I have been making and the things I have been doing. I have been eating foods that make my body feel it's best, I have been exercising regularly and I have been on one interview and have another scheduled in a couple of days. All of these things combined have made me feel better.
The feeling of wanting to go on a diet is pretty much gone. Last week, I made up my mind that I would start to loosely follow the principles of Dr. Oz again. I remember that when I followed his ideas, I felt like a million bucks. And I think that deciding to feel like a million bucks again can't be a bad thing. I am sure most of you are thinking that I have fallen off of my IE rocker but really I haven't. I think that feeding my body the foods that make me feel good on the inside and out is the right choice whether some guy has written a book about it or not. I am also taking a non diet approach.
You see, after my bought with the grease, sugar and lattes, I was feeling really terrible. No energy, lack of desire to do anything except sleep and eat and most of all, my clothes were getting tighter. No matter which way I looked at it, I didn't feel good. I had to do something. After a conversation with Monica, I realized that the all or nothing mentality was running wild in my brain again. I had made up my mind that I was going on a diet and that I wasn't going to allow myself this or that anymore. After we chatted, I knew that the all or nothing approach was not the right one. Baby steps.
So, I started cutting out the things that were making me feel terrible. I had been paying attention to how I was feeling after certain foods. I noticed that after eating a piece of lemon pound cake, I crashed a few hours later and headed straight for a sugar laden latte to bring me back up again. A viscous cycle. I also started to think about my cholesterol and my overall health. After much thought, I realized that I have done the work of making chocolate cake legal again. I am doing the emotional work that needs to be done (loving my therapist, btw). Now, I want to feel good again. I want my body to feel healthy and strong. I want to be healthy and so now, I am stepping into the world of gentle nutrition.
Now lets get back to that Dr. Oz thing. A number of people have mentioned that taking the information I learned when I was a "dieter" and turning it into useful information today is not a bad thing. As I mentioned before, when I followed the Dr. oz principles, I felt great and knowing that is my prize. I know what I need to do to make my body feel good but I don't have to be on a "diet" to do it. I can still eat whatever I want, whenever I want. I am in charge, not Dr. Oz and varying from his "rules" isn't the end of the world.
I was just telling Mike that I am feeling really great about my food and exercise choices over the past week or so. He responded by saying "even the pizza". Yep. Even the pizza because there are no rules.
